Mental illness is very misunderstood sicknesses that i can think of. Most. Normal people do not understand how a person can let there mind take control of every asspect of there life . I am tell you from first hand experience 4 years ago i was diagnosed with psychosis and for the ones that don't know what that means . It is what i call the best of all worlds figuretively speaking. It is bi polar ,depression, anxiety and parinoid schizophrenic .I Remember the day the physicoligest diagnosed me and she told me and my dad and wife. I literally saw my dads heart break and my wife was just trying to figuer out how we were going to deal with this new way off life for us and not make me feel uncomfrotable by treating me diffetent. I was still convinced that what i was thinking was true but i was having deluiouson and to me that was real as what was really going on in the world except i was the only one in my world .This is when the depression started it is hard to except the fact that the only 2 people that truly love you don't believe you .I felt so a lone and scared and this started to take a toll on me and my wifes relationship becaues she had to listen to me every day talk about what i thought was happing in my delusions and pretend at first to believe me and then eventualy she would get mad at me .so when she started telling me my delliousions were not real and i started to lose All the trust i had for her it was like 8 years was going down the drain real fast and my relationship with my father wasnt the best we seldom talked and i kind of went a riclues and couldnt believe that my dad and wife were not on my side and didnt believe me. My wife thought i was doing it on purpose to get her to not want to be with me becaues i didnt want her any more.I felt so alone and didnt know what to do are where i was safe it even got to the point that i really thought my wife and her sister i wanted to kill me. .So i woke up one mornig and the next thing i new i was on a plane to florida to live with my mom and i don't what made me think that would work out becaues you see thats where i got the gein from .My mom is bi polar and then my dad tells me when we were eating before i went to the mental hospital that my grandfather was a parinoid. schizophrenic and his sister are something like that commited suicides due to mental illness . So never the less me living with my mother who has her own issues didnt work out for the best she called police on me and kicked me out with nothing to my name and in florida and the only people i know there is my mom and sister so i had to walk the streets until my wife drove 18 hr straight to pick me up and bring me back to Texas and don't forget now i am getting in the car with my wife who i ran a way from be caues i didnt trust are feel safe in texas are around her but i had no place to go but back to my dads house with him and my wife that was the most nerves ride back to texas wear this all began and i was going to try to get passed this time in my life thats what i kept telling my self any way .Well when we got back it started of pretty good i remembered how much i loved my wife and dad but the inevadable happened again telling my wife the same things again waking my dad up at 3:00am in morning every night and i started to not trust my wife again a it got to the point where i thought her and my father were conspiring aganist me . i was even walking. Up to random people telling them to tell the man i wanted to talk to him .Just to give you an idea what kind of mind frame i was in and how much i believed that there was this man that was following me I walked up to this guys window and told him to please tell him i need to talk to him .Now when i look back on that day and what that guy did was a very compassionate thing any human being could do .He told me that he would let him know and that it was going to be ok .when he told me that i really thought he was going to tell him and i Told him thank you so much and that i have been trying to get in touch with him but you see the mind frame i was in i believed him and i got the answer i wanted and i took off home and told my wife that this guy was going to tell him and that every thing was going to be all wright. My wife just looked at me and started crying and i didnt understand why i thought that she would be happy for me so i was confused again and didnt understand why know body believed me but i had it in my head that guy new who i was talking about so i thought that they were the ones that were crazy not me but now i know that guy did what he thought was rite and what would make the situation a good one instead of telling me to get my crazy self away from him. I could of put my self in a bad situation.The final straw for my dad and wife was when i had them driving around looking for this house that we couldnt find and iam hollaring at top of lungs at them because they didnt believe and my wife was crying my dad could only say to lets go get you some help i didnt want to but unwillinly i went and That was the best thing that could of happend to me . I went to a mental hospital and got evaluated and put on the right medication and had to stay for about a week and a half but when i tell you that i think different when i am on the meds than when i am off its like night and day . I will be on meds the rest of my life. I just had to find out what worked for me like coloring wood working. I have to have every minute of the day accounted for so i can keep my mind off of the negative and stay foucused and positive .Don't get me wrong every day is a challenge but i cant give up and i will not let this beat me you have to learn how to imbrace it in stead of let it get the best of you . I couldnt have done it with out the support of my wife and dad and this is why i think that mental illness is at a all time high because somebody with mental illness doesn't think they have a problem so they will never get help if you leave it up to them . This is the sad part that i realized and have seen time and time again is that the family finds it easer to just disown the problem instead of doing what my family did for me. They did not give up on me and stuck threw the hard times and there were hard times believe me. They make sure i take my meds and always pull me back to reality when they see me get out there . So my goal is to raise as much money as possible to help as many people with any kind of mental disorder that i can help in the city of houston Texas that i can because we did not choose to have a mental disorder and any body that has this problem deserves to have a fair chance at living a normal life .